Devu

"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

Today Devu died. We lost a part of us with him. He leaves behind a gap in our heart that will never fill. 

                                                      Do not stand at my grave and weep.

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,

I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumn's rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush,

I am the swift uplifting rush

of quiet birds in circled flight.

I am the stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there, I did not die...

So far so good...

The initial few weeks after starting the job were really amazing... So many things were happening at the same time, didn't have much time to comprehend everything but I remember being really grateful all the time for every bit of it....
That's the thing with life you either have everything at the same time or nothing at all... The only thing that remained constant was me being mean to V before n after... No arrogance or change in attitude because of the job...!!! Really I was mean even before....
Well, the work is good, I like it but the place, not so much.... This place the more I have gotten to know it the more boring I find it.... Anyway lets not go there, the ugly side of me will start speaking if I did... The good thing is that this city is close to the other awesome cities like Washington DC, New York etc... That seems to be the only consolation.. Haa...
Well, all of plans of eating healthy and losing weight have gone miserably down hill.... I am gonna try and be better at it.... I now have genuine respect for people who have the will power to eat healthy, exercise and not abuse their bodies by overeating.... And, I am talking about celebrities who get paid big "figures" on the basis of their "figure" , I am talking about real people like me... with a job and an emotional eating disorder....
Well, fat shall come and fat shall go.... 

New Beginings!

2 Corinthians 9:14-15

And in their prayers for you their hearts will go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. ¹⁵ Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!

On January 28th 2013, I started my new job with much anticipation. Had worked too hard and waited too long for this day. I joined Barclaycard US as a Business Analyst. :)
The first week of work was crazy, less to do with my actual work and more to do with my life around it... Learning to drive on the dreaded I 95 highway where I thought I would be killed even before I got my first week's pay, staying in the hotel by myself for a week and not having anyone really to talk to except Becky... Well, then I moved into my apartment and did a lot of stuff on my own really... It was really good feeling of doing everything on your own but again there is no denying the pain of hypocrisy or irony....
The search for a new church, new couch and new friends lead me to different places none of which I liked as soon as I saw them... But, eventually got all the right ones for me....
Within the first month of moving, i also made my first trip from one city to another alone at 70 miles/hours on an average... Haha... This I feel very proud of... From a girl who never drove 1 year back, to a girl who drives in a small town, to a girl who drives with her heart in her mouth with her husband sitting next to her, on Feb 15th I transitioned into the girl who rips on the left line to reach her destination as soon as possible.... :)

The BEAUTIFUL snowflakes!

Day 13.....Day 15

Day 13! This week has been a crazy week... Finally the start date of the offer I was waiting for came through and there is so little time to do anything... We have been having extreme cold weather here in State College, my first time ever experiencing such harsh temperatures... But on the bright side, I did discover the wonderful designs of snow flakes... What an AMAZING thing it is. No two snow flakes are the same, each one is different, just like all of us.

Due to the frenzy or rather the utter shock surrounding my move from State College, the post I began writing on Day 13 never got completed and it continues on to Day 15 today... Well, the move has been rather SAD, not because I was leaving V behind. But because I was moving far away from my 2 closest friends in State College Becky and Gaby, they made my boring life so much better and brighter.Will MISS them so very much... :(  Especially Becky, she is like a mother to me...  :(  And because of these lovely people and my wonderful church, I had come to love State College so much... It is such a safe, protective and cozy town...

Today I missed church as we were moving to Wilmington, Delaware where my new job is... I am a new driver and today I drove for 3.5 hrs non stop from one town to another.... Its a first! As, I settled into my hotel where I will be staying for a week till I find an apartment, it finally HIT me. I was going to be staying alone int his NEW town. I have never lived on my own ever!!!! I am not scared of living alone but of being alone, with no friends, family, pet and I hate that I have to drive on the busy FIVE lane I 95 highway at 65 miles/hour with my heart in my mouth. I have never driven on such highways. And this scares me to death literally. If I die on highway I 95, I will not be surprised at all. Nope, nah, nada not an atom of doubt there.
I am starting to feel the strangeness and cold vibe of this place... And, I have not even gone to work yet. Hopefully, I will be treated kindly there if I survive to reach the office. Fingers crossed!

Have not been sticking to my plans very much for the fast and praying either... But communication with Jesus  is always there through out the day, with out which how will I survive the I 95 highway! Lord! Save your child from all those fast cars and from myself!!!

Matthew 8:26 
And he said to them, "Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?" Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm.

Day 9

Well day 5,6,7,8 came and went... I hardly did had the patience to get on the blog but here I am finally on Day 9...!
Thursday was a very weary day with lots of tears but anyway in the end me and V went to the bar for his weekly Thirst Thursdays event... Drank lots of water, whiffed all the junk food at the bar and had a decent time with friends at the bar... One funny incident that night was, 2 guys walking up to me and my 2 girl friends and asking us about our plans for the evening... Guess, its the American way of asking girls out... Well, I thought it was some random guy trying to sell us some stuff and told we were waiting for our husband and off
they ran away to my amusement!!! I didn't really understand what happened at the moment since I am not very used to the American dating culture, but my Spanish friends got it and were pretty pleased with themselves, knowing that they still had "IT" in them... We just had a good laugh... I am sure the guys were trying to ask my really beautiful friend Gaby out... She is always the target! :)
Well, I dnt even remember what I did on Friday... Hmm.. Signs of old age I guess... Oh... I remember now.... I got news on my telephonic interview, it seems it went GREAT!!! Wow!! Spent most of the day planning the F2F interview which will be in Rhode Island.. We'll see how its gonna go.. :)
In the evening we went out to ski/snowboard on Friday evening with Gaby, Jose and Garry.. Its was a CRAZY night.... I am never going to do any more snowing activity as I finally realized on Friday that I suffer from Hypothermia... I was really freaked out to try snowboarding, though I was on the board for 20 min.. Then I just threw the board away, did a couple of rounds of snow tubing which was new... It was great but it hurt my butt a bit... I wasted 30$ on my snowboarding, but I realized its not my thing... I am never gonna do it... I hate being in the snow so long and struggling to do something which I dnt enjoy doing....
Day 10 was a Saturday and Gaby and Jose had called us over for lunch to celebrate their friend's birthday... Gaby is not used to cooking but she did really well... Fed a nice meal of salad, rice,Red pepper chicken and the birthday cake!!! Yum!!!
Day 11, Sunday was usual, church and cleaning the house. Managed to watch 2 movies, Argo and Skyfall over this break...
Day 12, today has been absolute laziness did not do anything hence finally blogging...

As you can see, I am fasting all right but praying has been on been satisfactory the past few days... Have to get back on track....
And also start preparing for the interview... Everything will happen in God's time alone...

Day 4

Its been a quite day and I did not happen to study much for my interview last night... Hmm... Having said that, I started watching this old TV series called as Breaking Bad, had been pushing this around for sometime cause its story line sounded similar to Weeds.

Well, anyway the interview was at 3:00 pm ,so I did have a lot to time to watch some more BB episodes and brush up for the interview. The interview came and went, it was ok,. I can't really be sure they will call me back for a F2F interview though... We'll see.

After that it was back to business with Netflix and some more job search. And today, I did eat 2 oranges in the evening.

The only good part about today was that it snowed last night and it looked beautiful outside. Serene.

I am going to make black eyed peas burgers tomorrow for lunch. Looking forward to it!